July 25th, 2007

Current Music: Hey Mercedes- Absolute Zero Drive Subject: ah Time: 03:21 pm Current Mood: gloomy

sorry yes i know im a loser anywho ive actually moved into the pub now. yeah we were about to be thrown out of our old place and because we dont pay attention robin and i forgot to find somewhere to live. so our new manager let us have a room upstairs.. our new manager is a bit of a nightmare...we arent allowed to have friends round even though its our flat . we have been living there for like 3 weeks now but he still hasnt bothered to fix our door that is coming off the hinges so we cant close the door...which makes "afternoon delight" very difficult. aldo they have been really horrible and not giving me enough hours...at this rate i wont ever to be able to afford to move out! robin is doing really well at his job. i would love to move away...but it wouldnt be fair to him. oh well back to the house hunting...it really sucks.

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June 1st, 2007

Time: 02:44 am Current Mood: tired

ok yes it has been forever...oh weelll i just suck at life... I recieved a friend invitation on facebook from Neil...i sent him a very angry reply. it felt soo damn good that i could do lots and lots of crazy things! im in london because it is my best friend Elizabeth (non-little elisabeth) 21st birthday! it was super fun little elisabeth and jen made us all dinner at elizabeth's new fancy house.... but mostly im pleased about the whole angry message to neil thing. i told him that the next message he sends me better be an apology or he can stay out of my life. and i have decided (long ago) that even if he were to apologize i would tell him to go away. also i need a new job...every day at the pub i want to punch somebody...i have become so angry all the time...and a tiny bit racist (just because people not from this country cant order drinks and its annoying and they dont believe you when you tell them that you havent forgotten their Guinness its just settling.) anywho back to good ol bournemouth in the morning :( i have to work from 5-f (i was sorta hoping to have sex or something tommorrow but that is so not happening now)

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February 23rd, 2007

Time: 10:16 pm

they finally opened a Wagamamas in Bournemouth...i can finally breath properly here now...oh and "Hot Fuzz" kicks some serious ass!

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December 25th, 2006

Subject: Jack Sparrow Time: 01:02 am Current Mood: excited

so its officially christmas...yay!! anywho i have a job...well done beth...i work in a pub on the end of my road called The Richmond Arms...its super neat. the people are all really nice...i was surprised that they would train someone this close to the holidays but they didnt seem to mind... oh and i passed my theory test :) rock on me :) on christmas eve we are allowed to open one present .... my parents gave me this toy thats from Monty Python and the Holy Grail...its a catapult with assorted plastic barn yard animals...and the giant wooden rabbit :) Dan (my brother in law) and i managed to lose all the animals in the space of 2 minuets of opening it. then we decided to do an expirenemt...or an EGGspirement...hehehe we launched an egg with my catupult off of the balcony and then swiftly ran away...we are very hard core tomorrow/today i have to get up very early...not just to open presents but to also start setting up for our party...we are throwing a carribean themed christmas parrrrrty....i put in all the "rrrr"s beacuase as you get out of the elevator on our floor my parents put a massive cardboard cut out of Captain Jack Sparrow directly in front of the elevator... yeah i love my parents sometimes :)

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November 29th, 2006

Current Music: The Lawrence Arms Time: 03:47 pm

thanksgiving was nice...but def the best bit was saturday night! had a typical beth "social gathering" jack, greg, jen, elisabeth and then greg brought 3 friends from Bates and robin was there as well...drank loads of wine and bitched about stuff that happened 3 years ago...it was great fun :) but it seriouslly wasnt the same without Elizabeth...her parents dont really do thanksgiving so she hadnt come back to london :( yesterday was my driving theory test...i failed...by 1 BLOODY POINT! fuckers...oh well hopefully ill get it next time... today was nice...i was just chilling in bed at 11 this morning...then robin rang...he told me to look outside and he was there. he is doing some temp driving work...and asked me to go along with him...it was fun...riding around in a wite van with robin again :) anywho just cleaned the whole bathroom! i properly scrubed it all clean :) and then Sass the Magnificant is going to dye my hair for me...ill try to get some pictures today of it when it looks it best :) and then i might go see Casino Royale with Luke's Hot Sister (yes that is her offical name but her nickname is Amy) should be good fun :)

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November 20th, 2006

Current Music: system Time: 10:41 pm

i hate it when youre in a bad mood so you lay on your bed and close youre eyes for awhile and think of good times. then you open your eyes...look around and you realise where you are and feel utterly disapointed.

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November 16th, 2006

Current Music: get a move on- Mr. Scruff Subject: ahoy there! Time: 01:03 pm

i know its been ages... going to see Mr. Scruff tonight!! im very excited! except i only have 30 pounds to last me the next 10 days...which means i cant get drunk :( robin and i are doing well. my birthday dinner with my family went well...except that i sorta expected that it would be ok for robin and i to sleep in the same bed now. but apparently its not... i guess i would feel weird if my mom was OK with that...anywho been playing canis canem edit....aka bullworth academy...aka bully...its awsome ive had it for like 3 days and ive been playing non stop pretty much...robin and i were playing it the other night...then i looked out the window and i realised it was light outside...oops... so i ran out of money right...and i was really worried but carrie and dan saved the day...i almost forgot that they gave me 25 pounds worth of gift certificates for my b-day to marks and sparks. so i could buy food and still have 30 pounds :) beth was a happy bunny. anywho got to go back to my game...sooooo addictive!

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November 4th, 2006

Subject: birthday panic Time: 05:25 pm Current Mood: anxious

allo allo about to start getting ready for my birthday night :) it should be interesting i am a bit annoyed that someone i feel as one of my best friends has completely been ingnoring me since ive moved to bournemouth i feel really deserted... i think i freaked out robin...oops...my mom called last night and wanted me to come up to london to have a family birthday lunch thing (minus dad...of late thats been pretty normal) and she asked if robin wanted to come...so i rang robin and asked him...i think he was shocked...and thats when i really realised thats its such a couple thing to do... i apoligized for weirding him out...but he said that he will come... today he rang me that he had nothing nice to wear...and sounded quite weird...which who could blame him...one thing i did to ease him was to confirm that my dad would not be present. he breated a little better after that...haha oh and ew ill be 21 tomorrow...where has my youth gone?

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October 15th, 2006

Time: 03:43 am Current Mood: cheerful

probably going up to london tommorrow...aka today rather... my friend Rob Reagan is visiting...i havent seen him since he moved away from london like 3 years ago or something...and for some reason im a little bit nervious...i think im worried that he'll try it on with me...even though i have informed him that i have a boyfriend... the doorbell rang yesterday at 11 am...far too early for the likes of me...but i got up and answered it anyways...it was robin saying happy 2 months...yay for me for not screwing it up yet...he brought me a bottle of pinot...then spent the rest of the day sleeping :) it was a very nice day... just finished watching kinky boots...it was neat :)

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October 10th, 2006

Time: 04:18 am

robin just called me...a second after he sent a txt message so i didnt read the message and just anwsered the phone...he told me that before i read the message he wanted to talk to me...i asked him if it had to do with us...he said that it did...i told him i was scared...he said to read it, think about it for 15 mins and to call him back...i asked if it was big...he said it was... it was very big

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October 4th, 2006

Time: 08:00 pm Current Mood: chipper

so right dan is here now...fantastic...i really hate that guy...jk dan is in the room next to me...probably updating his lj knowing him. also im very excited cuz its playoffs!! hehe i want it to be the mets and the tigers in the WS but id want the mets to win...i know going against my ALness...but i cant not route for the Mets...and i think it would be great if the Tigers could complete this crazy ass turn around! from being so shite...to being so good anywho im having loads of issues with the whole job situation. like i need to find out if i can even get a job...and if i cant what will i be doing during the year...robin made a great suggestion in that i can try to find a class...like at a learning annex type of thing...like maybe i can just find some computer class or photography class for a couple of months...i reckon that could be good. my mom is asking for me to come home this weekend...im scared that she will give me a massive lecture and try to convince/force me to move back to london or something...when im so happy here...its weird...cuz everything from the outside looks like its going wrong...and when i tell people my situation they all feel really bad for me...but im really enjoying myself and feel like its the right thing to do at the moment...so yay for beth...

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September 30th, 2006

Time: 02:33 am

now im ill.... im not a pretty sight... i forget why i was mad at robin...im really not kidding...i cant remember! had a nice chat with steph! i miss her! and when i get the chance im so going to visit her! i rented this movie without reading the back...its weird...its 7 artist doing short film pieces about their views on sex and pornogrpahy...i was eating while i was watching it...i was nearly sick and had to watch something els...i know, me...being grossed out by sex! speaking of...clerks 2...was very very fun...i saw it with robin...we were the ONLY 2 people in the entier theater...shocking...and it was amusing...its good to see Kevin Smith going back to his old ways... i didnt quite understand what he was doing with Jersey Girl...but hopefully hes on the right path again! also im sad as this years, baseball season comes to a close :( the indians have not had a great season... but not all that good...they are tied in the bottom of the 9th 1-1 with tampa bay...runners on 1 and 2 with 1 out...c'mon boys...sort it out!

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September 25th, 2006

Time: 05:16 pm

im having a really rough time at the moment... just had a really nice chat with gemma with helped quite a bit...on my way to the internet cafe so i can print off my CV and then tomorrow im going to drop it off at a couple of places round town to get a job. man i need a job... im really fucked off with robin...but i dont have the guts to tell him... i really feel weak at the moment... and i fucking hate feeling weak.

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September 19th, 2006

Time: 02:15 am

spoke to my dad yesterday...finally told him that i wasnt going back to uni...for the next year...and he was totally calm about it... i was like...really? he was completly supportive and amazing...man my dad is the shit... also realised that i have 9 pounds in my acount...oops...thank god robin gave me back the money from the van hire or i would be really screwed! i so need a job...im starting on my cv... robin reckons im like Saint from Sugar Rush...all i need is a job in a sex shop!...i try to explain to him that i am not a lesbian...but i dont think that he believes me...or according to Beard Dan...i was going to be a lesbian...but it really didnt work out for me... whatever i love cock...

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September 16th, 2006

Current Location: my new home :) Subject: its all about charminster Time: 12:49 am Current Mood: chipper

sitting in my new house in bournemouth...its awsome...my room is totally kick ass! its on the top floor...minor problem seeing as there are loads of stairs...but it isnt really all that bad... today went down to poole to see Robin...we went shopping...i needed bedding materials...cuz im very special and forgot pillows and a duvet when i moved down...we picked it out together...wow i sound like a couple...ewwwwww...but i probably wont see him for another week cuz he is leaving for london tomorrow i believe to go see his family for his dad's birthday...i tried to help him pick out a present...but we couldnt find what we wanted....a Eddie Izzard DVD...man his family is awsome...(like 10 million hot dogs) so got back put my bedding together...and watched first season of Sugar Rush...again...man im sooo in love with that show...gotta love teenage lesbian angst! phwar... anywho off to bed! yay for me for having a good day :)

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September 1st, 2006

Current Location: Knucklehead Subject: knucklehead! Time: 11:23 am Current Mood: accomplished

sitting in Knucklehead at the moment! today is my last day :( its been so amazingly awsome! however i didnt get to go on the audi shoot...apparently they are having loads of problems and are just doing very technical re-shoots...bummer but whatver... anywho everyone here is so nice! they have all been very kind and patient with me...most of the time im just running errands...but the other day...i got to help out the 1st AD (thats assistant director for you non movie folk) by helping him make velcro storyboards for the audi shoot that are being used on set as i type!!! extremely neato!! I have been working mostly with this woman Cristiana...and she s awsome! (like a hot dog) we hang around and i do work for her and laugh and chill...also Paolo (deb from HSBC's husband) has been soo nice to me...at least once a day he comes over and we have a heart to heart! he just finished writitng me an amazing reference and offered to let me use him as a contact if i ever needed it! We have already had one chat today about this being my last day...and he jokingly said..."stay here and work for us!" ....damn i just read the recomendation...its soooo nice...the last line is "we are sorry to lose her" man what if they did offer me a job...they might...but talking to paolo earlier he said that i really should go and finish my education before anything...so who knows maybe in a couple years i can come back and work here!! such an amazing thought! but at the mo...im answering the phone for the office...I HATE talking to strangers!! plus im worried that ill fuck up...Cristiana is out of the office...and im worried that ill do somehing stupid and embarress myself!!! cuz im so good at that!

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August 20th, 2006

Current Music: Devil in a midnight mass Current Location: in my new awsome house in london Time: 11:51 pm

one of my fav things of late is when people surprise you i mean not with gifts but when something comes out of their mouth that helps you to understand them more than you could possibly think of... i finally admitted how much i dislike jack...but its not about jack...its about what i feel that jack represents...corporate, labels...and stuck up-ness...even though i understand that he is going through his own stuff at the moment as well...i had a conversation with elizabeth about it...just before i was about to break out in tears after seeinng SNAKES ON A PLANE... by the way...SNAKES ON A PLANE is brilliant...except the last bit when i couldnt physically watch it without having a physical and mental break down about the whole airplane thing i did very well... i ddint run out of the movie theater or anything out of fear...and i am very proud of myself that i didnt let my fear over come me...to make me miss out on a truely awsome movie!! also robin and i are together... weird i know i know "i told you so" about "fuck buddies" eventually turning into something "more than" whatver i dont care cuz im happy he even OFFERED to help me move down to bournemouth this week...and has...of his own accord...looked up prices for van hires...no body has ever done that before for me... i dont want to get ahead of myself about us....cuz knowing me...before i know it we will be breaking up...i really want this one to work...and if i look at other guys...they look nothing to me...i compare them to Robin and they seem nothing... sorrry for going overboard about robin right now...but i still have that "new relationship smell" feeling where you can say stuff like that and believe it! wow im really sick with "it" arent i?

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August 18th, 2006

Current Location: HSBC Subject: dont say "i told you so" Time: 02:47 pm Current Mood: happy

so after a year and a half of fooling about... robin and i finally got it together... yeah i know i know...please spare me the "i told you so's" cuz i really dont care! its only been a week so nothing is all concrete yet but...yeah...its good... i went to see him in poole this past weekend cuz i just wasn't in the mood to be in london. we went out...got a little drunk (as per usual) and he said some cute stuff...then i said some cute stuff... yeah yay for me also i think that today wont be my last day at work. I promised Deb that i would come back in on Monday. to have a proper send off and that she needs me here...man Deb is awsome! also im like almost for sure that ill be working on this commercial set for Audi...Deb and i were having lunch and she was telling me all the "do's and donts" also im attempting to move down to bournemouth this week so does anybody know a man with a van that is cheap?!

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August 2nd, 2006

Current Location: HSBC TV Studio Time: 01:52 pm Current Mood: bouncy

holy crap by the way i forgot to mention who Deb is...she is this canandian woman who works in my office...she was brought in as a consultant to get the TV studio to function properly...she is amazing...she reminds me of Ms. Ojalvo...but canadian... Sitting at work supposed to be researching corporate video production companies....very not exciting. Went to lunch with Deb and i found out something goood....very good...her husband is the financial director of this production company that does commericals...yeah they did all of the new M&S commercials that have Twiggy in it and whatnot...so she is going to try to get me some work experience there! how kick ass is that? another fun fact about Deb...her friend used to date the lead singer of Billy Talent. Yeah thats right. just got an email from her husband...about the internship...and said that i would be getting coffee and running erands but during the time that i want to work there that they are filming adverts for audi and lexus...how insane is that? i could watch them creating an audi advert! dude thats insane...also Deb's other friend works for an independent company, so Deb showed me a music video that they made...and i was like...wait that looks familiar...yeah its been playing on MTV recently...its rap so i dunno who it is really...but i know ive heard it and seen it. i want to cry from happiness or go skipping or...play a banjo or something right now... Deb also volunteered to write a recomendation for me to get on to a TV production course she could be my savior! im so happy but of course im acting cool anywho better get back to work........

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July 25th, 2006

Subject: new house....again Time: 09:34 pm

jeeezzzy crezzzy its been 4eva (im so hip) things have beeen....intense.... im all packed up and moved back to london for the summer...ive definetly quit my course cuz it was fucking shit. im looking for a new course in TV production but still in bournemouth tomorrow my family is moving house. i believe this will be our 8th move in 8 years house in buffalo (12 yrs) to flat in Buffalo (5 months) flat in buffalo to house in hampstead, london (2 yrs) hampstead london to acacia gardens in st. johns wood london (1 yr) acacia gardens to new york city (2 months) nyc to flat on bond street (2 weeks) bond street to charles lane (1 year) charles lane to the marlowes ( 2 years) the marlowes to some really big apartment building in between marylebone and baker street (this is not including moving to and from uni last year and this year and again in two weeks) so with the family moving everyone is really on edge...that and i dont really sleep anymore...like i cant sleep unless im completly exhausted...so usually i fall asleep at 4 am or something...so i can be a little cranky during the day...but only if im forced to sleep on a really small couch even though i had no need to if someone had told me that they werent staying the night...anywho i was all good today cuz my annoyance of the other has reletivly shaken off and i am genuenly excited about the new house!! the shower in "my room" is sooooooo lush! (wow i just said lush...steph's influence i would imagine!) anywho its time for me to get back to playing age of mythology...im kicking ass...(yes i know im a loser)

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